on wednesday Eve started her speech therapy, it was going pretty well to be honest until she brought the blocks out!
WHY OH WHY DID SHE BRING THE BLOCKS OUT!!
suddenly Eve went to being really cooperative (well for Evie anyway) woman was saying how much her eye contact improved and how much better she is to BOOM BLOCKS!
Eve went into her corner and out of the way the woman tried giving her 1 block at a time HA GOOD LUCK!
Eve was getting frustrated, people kept touching her blocks, they weren't piling how she wanted them to it was all too much she kept crying, so the woman decided it was time to put them away (OH GREAT)
she started encouraging her to put them in the box and Eve happily agreed as she loves putting blocks in and out of boxes, but as soon as she finished and decided it was time to get them back out the woman started trying to sign "finished" at her, Eve suddenly went into deaf mode!
she would not look at anyone she would not listen she wasn't interested in anything anyone had to say she wanted those blocks back!
the woman hid them ontop of a cupboard but Eve went into full blown meltdown, screaming to the top of her lungs, I tried giving her her bear but no she ignored it, thats when you know its serious! when the bear is shunned!!
after 10 minutes of endless screaming we decided to just leave it at that, the woman gave Eve a sticker that calmed her down a little bit, we got home and Eve was happy again eating, until 6pm that is.
6pm hit and out of no where meltdown!
nothing happened she just started screaming for no reason what so ever and carried the screaming on until 2am!!!
next day she was pretty happy enough we went to play until bedtime again where she started screaming and kicking the door down.
now today I am extremely tired, craving a bath and have portage coming round, I managed to clean the house last night but eve woke up this morning and decided it was ALL WRONG and destroyed the entire flat while screaming and even slapped the dog!!
this is so out of character for her!
WHY IS THIS HAPPENING!? :(
ooft just ooft.
Friday, 29 June 2012
Tuesday, 12 June 2012
having a hard time.
been having a bit of a hard time lately, had some person issues I won't go far into, but they have really stressed me and I'm pretty sure I have relapsed and have my PND back.
its weird, I find it so much easier to talk about online on a screen to imaginary people but the second it comes to saying the words out loud I just can't do it, this is my own fault as well the doctors told me to stay on my medication for atleast 6 months otherwise there is a high chance of relapsing, but they gave me panic attacks so I stopped taking them.
I've come up to my mums house and the stress I have had here from family, "friends" and men have made me feel like I've got back a year!
I have never felt so rock bottom, and what makes it worse is both the kids are going nuts at me, which is making me even worse, Connie is teething and these teeth are not wanting to come through so she is constantly sleeping, refusing to eat and screaming, thats all she does lately, and Eve!
well she's getting her last couple of teeth through, some back ones (yay ¬¬) and she is constantly screaming at me pulling my hair (she never pulls hair so this is completely new to me now :( ) just not she was throwing things at Connies face, then sat herself ontop of her, as hard as she could, then just started screaming in her ear as loud as possible obviously setting Connie off as well!!
this is one of those days I wish I wasn't single and wish I had someone here to just give me a cuddle and make me feel better and calmer.
Oh well not going to happen so all I can do now is wait to go home next week and go to the doctors and start on my medication, oh joy, can't wait to start getting the shakes in the middle of the night again -_-
its weird, I find it so much easier to talk about online on a screen to imaginary people but the second it comes to saying the words out loud I just can't do it, this is my own fault as well the doctors told me to stay on my medication for atleast 6 months otherwise there is a high chance of relapsing, but they gave me panic attacks so I stopped taking them.
I've come up to my mums house and the stress I have had here from family, "friends" and men have made me feel like I've got back a year!
I have never felt so rock bottom, and what makes it worse is both the kids are going nuts at me, which is making me even worse, Connie is teething and these teeth are not wanting to come through so she is constantly sleeping, refusing to eat and screaming, thats all she does lately, and Eve!
well she's getting her last couple of teeth through, some back ones (yay ¬¬) and she is constantly screaming at me pulling my hair (she never pulls hair so this is completely new to me now :( ) just not she was throwing things at Connies face, then sat herself ontop of her, as hard as she could, then just started screaming in her ear as loud as possible obviously setting Connie off as well!!
this is one of those days I wish I wasn't single and wish I had someone here to just give me a cuddle and make me feel better and calmer.
Oh well not going to happen so all I can do now is wait to go home next week and go to the doctors and start on my medication, oh joy, can't wait to start getting the shakes in the middle of the night again -_-
Sunday, 3 June 2012
Damn you stacking cups
it's being a pretty difficult afternoon at the moment, Eve has found stacking cups in nannies toy box!
I had no idea these cups were here, now we are in a never ending flow of tears and tantrums!
she is currently trying to stack them up, when she can't do it (has the sizing the wrong way) she was cry A LOT bring the cups to me still in tears, I have to put the cups back together and she will run off, sit down and and take the cups apart, which again ends in tears, she brings the cups back to me, i put them together, she runs off she takes apart she cries she brings then back and we can see where this is going, this is when the day gets hard, do i carry on, letting her get wound up and upset? do i take them away again causing upset? do i superglue these cups together? but then no that would cause upset because she can't take them apart!
oh god I wish we could understand eachother!
actually I also wish she never found those damn stacking cups, those silly stacking bastards
I had no idea these cups were here, now we are in a never ending flow of tears and tantrums!
she is currently trying to stack them up, when she can't do it (has the sizing the wrong way) she was cry A LOT bring the cups to me still in tears, I have to put the cups back together and she will run off, sit down and and take the cups apart, which again ends in tears, she brings the cups back to me, i put them together, she runs off she takes apart she cries she brings then back and we can see where this is going, this is when the day gets hard, do i carry on, letting her get wound up and upset? do i take them away again causing upset? do i superglue these cups together? but then no that would cause upset because she can't take them apart!
oh god I wish we could understand eachother!
actually I also wish she never found those damn stacking cups, those silly stacking bastards
New to this
Hi all I'm very new to this, I very much doubt anyone is reading this but I guess someone will one day.
I am starting this to basically keep track of my daughter Evies development, I know right now I wish there were more blogs by mums of children with autism out there so I could understand it more and what they go through so I don't feel so alone, because honestly that is how I feel right now, alone, Eve is a wonderful little girl don't get me wrong, I wouldn't change her for the world but its a hard thing to come to terms with having the words "autism" come out of your doctors mouth!
she has not been diagnosed fully yet as she is only 2 years old, but she is already getting help, and I am so happy to have the doctors I have, I really do appreciate everything they have done so far.
so far, she has speech therapy starting next month, she doesn't currently have any meaningful words at all and doesn't really understand many words either,so communicates by giving me things for example, she doesn't like whats on TV she will hand me the remote, i will change the channel, she doesn't like it she will give the remote to me again, which will carry on until I put what she wants on which 9 times out of 10 is the move tangled.
I will add the notes I got from my doctor to this blog because many people don't understand why she might have autism and I sort of feel I don't explain it well enough so maybe these will explain it better
and last but not least a picture of my gorgeous little girl
I am starting this to basically keep track of my daughter Evies development, I know right now I wish there were more blogs by mums of children with autism out there so I could understand it more and what they go through so I don't feel so alone, because honestly that is how I feel right now, alone, Eve is a wonderful little girl don't get me wrong, I wouldn't change her for the world but its a hard thing to come to terms with having the words "autism" come out of your doctors mouth!
she has not been diagnosed fully yet as she is only 2 years old, but she is already getting help, and I am so happy to have the doctors I have, I really do appreciate everything they have done so far.
so far, she has speech therapy starting next month, she doesn't currently have any meaningful words at all and doesn't really understand many words either,so communicates by giving me things for example, she doesn't like whats on TV she will hand me the remote, i will change the channel, she doesn't like it she will give the remote to me again, which will carry on until I put what she wants on which 9 times out of 10 is the move tangled.
I will add the notes I got from my doctor to this blog because many people don't understand why she might have autism and I sort of feel I don't explain it well enough so maybe these will explain it better
and last but not least a picture of my gorgeous little girl
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